AHH.

So. Stressed.

Can't. even/ function/ properly.

I just... Okay so you know how people go to college when they finish high school? Well, that is a very scary thing. Mostly because, you know, you are choosing a place for your own education. LIKE, what if i choose the wrong place? What if i didn't look hard enough for the right place and just settled and I hate it? What if i don't get in to any place, at all! What if i cant afford it?

I just submitted my first application.

ALSO. My mother keeps hounding me for my christmas list. I DONT WANT TO THINK ABOUT CHRISTMAS, THANK YOU. I don't know what's up this year, but i'm really not looking forward to it. I'm just not in the spirit of things. The music annoys me, the tree is ugly, and the decorations are obnoxious. Did you know that my birthday is a week after XMas? Not that i'm eager for it or anything, but i'd really much rather skip over the holidays and just go right to that. Then i'd only have to deal with well-wishing for a day, and then forget about it. Not this. OH no. This i have to deal with for a whole freaking month.

Yeah, the book. Almost forgot about that. Remember how i was telling you about that book i read by S. King on how to write? He and a book my writer-friend read by Gail Carson Levine says that i should wait a few weeks after completing the first draft to edit it. I think they are right. My dad printed out the whole thing at work (all 140 pages of it) and i started reading it, just to get a feel of how it is.

Bad idea.

Because i realized it sucks. It really, really, really sucks. Like, horrendously. Like, astronmically. Like, I don't know what i was thinking, type of thing. I wanted to gorge my eyes out with a spork. Seriously.

So I put it away in the "Forget-Me" drawer and i'm not taking it out until December 13, which is a very very long time away. Until then, I'm trying to catch up on my reading. The Harry Potter series (again) and a strange book called the House of Leaves. Expect a review for the latter.

TA-TAA. HAPPY HOLIDAYS.   :-|

NaNoWriMo

Hi, remember me?

Yeah, once upon a time I thought I was going to be doing this every single day. Luckily for me, I have been writing every day. Unlucky (maybe?) for you, I just haven't been writing here.

I've been completing this contest, called National Novel Writing Month (or NaNoWriMo) for the past 18 days. Basically the goal is to write 50,000 words of a first draft of a novel in 30 days; from the 1st of November to the 30th of November. You don't really win anything when you complete this goal, just a pat on the back, bragging rights, and a free manuscript of your book through a website called CreateSpace.

*Shrug*

For me, it's more about the deadline. It's an incentive to get my creative juices going. It forces me to write, which is good. Other wise, I'd let things like homework, and television and sleep get in the way of what's really important. I'm actually trying to go for 75 thousand words becuase last year I finished early too, and because--let's be honest--50k words almost never makes a satisfactory novel.

It's funny, I actually planned to do this big thing where I was going to introduce you to my characters, and like,  post some of the book as I was writing it on here, but... I'm almost done with the contest (I have 46,248 words out of 50,000 right now) sooooo I guess you'll just have to visit this.

p.s. Don't be surprised if you don't hear from me for a while. I won't be posting until the first draft is completely written. No more distractions for Alexa!